DRUNK@@!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~ fIRANGI paNII//,,,,,,,,,

Just this morning I was thinking about something..I have quiet accepted that I am feeling not very in the moment these days.. Its been like this for a while now…Now what could be the reason to that.. I actually did not ask myself this question… I was under the presumption that its just sad and boring overall.. But then this morning while studying for MBA entrances, it struck me that MAYBE one of the reasons that I am sad is that I feel time is passing by and I am not really killing things around.( not really making the most of),,,, well just then that I realized that whats it is to worry… I shoudnt be fretting.. after all we are the masters of our own universe.. If I am worried about time passing by, then I am already thinking about old age.. Hpw sad is that.. isn’t it.. at 23 yrs of age, old age already frets me.. well, If not age then just the time that’s gone forever, gone where? God only knows.. are we leaving a parallel universe behind us every moment? The second before typing what I am typing, has that second frozen as it was in the gallery of time.. Or that is just over? Non existent after the clock ticks ahead? So strange are the ways of the world.. I don’t really think I am making a whole lot of sense right now as the title of this essay would suggest why..
Hum unko bhulA na sake, par jab who saamne the, toh yeh aazma na sake, kis pathar pe kismet likhi gayi hai hamari? Who pathar ko bhi mitti bana na sake.. apne khwaisho ka mahal bana na sake, par I sbaar hawaye disha badlengi, tuffon aye ya na aye, upper se paigam ayega, aur iss baaar who manzil hum paa ke hi rahenge!!!!!....

random - you may not agree - but its my blog!

Been trying quiet hard to come up with something interesting to write. But the crazy part is nothing interesting happening around. So what to write? Thought of blatantly cooking something up.. but that doest work… thinking hard doesn’t work either!! It gotta flow naturally.. The obsession of doing mba.. how sserious am I into it.. is it just a satiation of ego or I really want to do it.. no answers there.. what would I want to see myself doing 2.4 years down.. no answers there either… the absence of direction shouldn’t misdirect me is all I hope. The current job has atleast instilled one desired job that I would want to do.. currency options TRADING… (doing broking as of now).. that is quiet possible.. all I need to do is do masters from IIM’s MDI FMS… but is that possible is the bigger question… 3 Lacs students vying for 3000 seats.. STUPID COUNTRY…..

The problem I feel with the Indian culture is that there is too much of protectionism for your children. This does clip their wings/ the desire to exceed.. Well the desire to exceed may be there, but the need may not be.. having a very comfortable life since the time you remember can actually be a detriment to your success.. you gotta suffer in order to succeed is what I feel… well there are upsides of the care and growing up in cocoon too.. but more downsides is what I feel.. you gotta break the cocoon and take up some real hard decision man… well too much to write… too little energy in hand… goodnight.. more on this later